Be Patient...

A friend told me today that every couple also got their own problems.. I totally agree with that. Many years ago, i've experienced it myself. Thats why i totally understand. But this world really inbalance because those who have never really appreciate. Some over care, some less care and some dont even care. I just feel very painful inside me because i dont have the chance anymore. I wish that the person really appreciate the partner who is so patient and understanding for so many years already all this while.. Hopefully both of them will have a happy and lovely life together.

"Dont ever give up on him... because i believe he will realise that he have someone special beside him all this while very soon..Wish both of you happily ever after..."

Wishes

Today is the last day for the month of November 2009. By 12am later, the final month of 2009 will start. Im still here alone thinking again and again. Im not sure what hit me today but my mood is not really good. Even go out dinner with my family i didnt say much and just silent. Sometimes i just think that how nice if i had someone just like the song "My Love Will Get You Home".. When ever i feel lost, that someone special can lead me back.. Too bad i dont have such luck. Sitting at here writing actually really makes me feel very down. I dont know where to go out there. The weather really match my mood this few days. Sometimes it is sunny and sometimes it just keep raining. I wonder how will i pass the final month of 2009. Those moments being alone really let me have too much space to think of about everything. Every year of my birthday, i also make the same wish... and every year, it really came true.. I afraid that if any year if i make some other wishes, then things will go different way. Last week, i been very happy finishing up a task. A task that given by a friend to be completed for an upcoming event. I just wish everything will go smooth on that day.


"If wishes really can be granted... i do wish that......."

Sleepless Night 2

Today i suddenly think of few persons. This few persons cross my mind at different moments of time through the day. Today i went to SDMC at subang jaya. I accompany my aunt to go there as she wanted to do x-ray and check her body. I was there today for almost 4 hours. Sitting there and watch so many people pass by as my aunt was waiting the doctor to arrive. It was lunch time and yet so many patients is waiting. Last week when i went to clinic nearby my housing area, as i drive through passing by few clinics, i can see that most of the clinic is full with sick people waiting for treatment. Same as what i seen today at SDMC. So many people fall sick nowdays. So as i was waiting, i saw a couple. A Malay couple and when the husband pass by in front of me, i thought my eyes was seeing somebody else. I thought i saw him. But of course is impossible because he already left this world. Then everything suddenly come back to me and runs in my head. So many memories of me and him while working together last time. I told myself that he should have rest in peace now.

Just now, while i was driving from my place to the badminton place i thought i saw someone i know. Just a glance because my car passing hers at the traffic light. Her car was heading out and at that time my car was exactly in front of hers. I look at her at the junction and she was surprise. But maybe is not the person i know. Maybe is someone else. Is been a long time since i saw her.

I was actually heading to bed already. But suddenly i recall someone. She also pass away few years already. Not only her picture was on my mind, her friends too. I know them and i wonder how they are doing now. We lost contact since she pass away. I wonder the friend who went to Japan so many years ago, is she back in Malaysia and how is she doing now? Another one was a girl i admire last time during secondary school. I wonder where is she now... Is been years since we last seen each other. Since the friend pass away, we all lost contact.


"I hope, no matter where and when.. for those who already left us, rest in peace.."

"For those who already lost contact... i hope you all are fine and always stay happy.."

My love will get you home

If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If the bright lights blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If you ever feel ashame
My love will get you home
If its only you to blame
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home


"Still looking for someone that able to give me this kind of love..."

Drama & Real Life

Just finish create a mp3 player for my own blog site. Feel very happy that i can upload the songs i like and share with my friends and family. Today i just finish another drama of 40 episodes. The final few episodes have make me feel very suffering since i still not yet recover from sick. Tears been dropping and the flu getting worse because of the story line is too touching. Anyway, the story ended with a good ending. But in the journey to the good ending, a lot of people have been suffering and some even die. If a drama with just simple story without any conflict i guess nobody will watch because people like excitement. Even though life sometimes is similar to the drama we watch, but i do like to watch all time good moments in drama and also hope for life. A lot of people say that without those pain and sad moments, one will never learn to appreciate and grow. But this is actually just an excuse given by us so that we can continue to make mistake and continue to give the excuse.


"Life is simple... but we make it complicated..."


"There are nothing perfect in life, everyone makes mistake... but we shouldn't repeat our mistake again and again.."

Sweet Memories

It was an enjoyable trip and i will always remember this two trips.. You guys are amazing.. Looking forward to our next trip..

Sleepless night

Looks like my body already immune to the medicine. Thought i might be feeling very tired and will have a good sleep after took the medicine but still im having sleepless night. Thought i might be continuing my drama but dont have that mood. Listening to song makes me thinks more and more. Everyday i stay in this room day and night, and sometimes when my niece run into my room call for me, i also feel very happy. Tonight makes me think back of the times when i still study in secondary school. During secondary school, every night i will on the radio and i will listen to it until late mid-night. At that time, i only have have a study table beside my bed and also a small cassette radio. Feels like that time is more simple and although having a boring life at that time, but i still feel very happy. Sometimes when the DJ play some of my favourite songs, i will recorded it into cassette. Then i can play back again and again. Sometimes during weekend, i will listen until 3am - 4am in the morning. At that time, i also have few penpals and i enjoy writting letter. Too bad i've lost contact with them. Having sleepless night in the past is not like now. At least, last time is more simple and the feeling is totally different. Last time when i still work at overseas, during holiday when i back to Malaysia, sometimes i will just drive alone at night and go round where ever i wish to go. I will let the songs accompany me along the driving journey and i feel relax with it. Now, i will sometimes still do that. But only sometimes because jobless cant afford much of petrol. LOL. Being alone sometimes makes me feel like i own the world to myself but sometimes also makes me feel very very lonely. Human is always like that, when have someone around we will hope that is better to be alone and when only alone then will hope is better to have someone around.


"Mix up the life but dont let the mixture take over the life"